bOreD....

i am super duper BORED now!!!!... heee.. nthg to do.. wtf..i am drinking my small little cup of vodka now... and blogging...precisely... haha...today wake up early and left home early den go sch early also. den reach the stupid 23 bus stop early also but waited there for like 45 minutes and this cause me late for my emath3 tutorial... and dunno whether the tutor got mark late or not cause he like dun care like tat den i dun care also lo.. den when for 2 boring lec. and headed TM for lunch with clique at BURGERKING. eat two set of burgers cause too hungry liao. hee..(oooo the vodka taste nice with the coconut wine.. heee..opss).. den after lunch spend the rest of my time in library slack until 4pm and go tut.. den headed back home ard 6pm.. and bro msg and say tat he is goin to be home late..and this means i will hv to eat my dinner alone again.. hmmm.. din eat much ..(this make me think of YOU.. meow... how i wish u can be at my side now and we hv dinner together... hee but too bad we both hv to study ... so just work hard and do well for our future ba.. heee.. LOVE...<3)and this end my day i think.. heee.. tmr will be heading down to bugis at ard 1.30pm to meet my class... class outing .. lunch and movie..(i wan watch IRON MAN!!!)... heee.. i think tat is all.. continue drinking my wine liao.. tata..

new life...

Hv been start sch for about like one week and more liao.. hmm.. been a quite unstable week last week but this week is better.. hee.. AND i DUN HV FRIDAY CLASS .. so nice.. hee.. last week hmmm emotion a bit unstable .. maybe is because miss you a lot ba.. meow... hv a little tiff.. hee..den went back on sat last week ... hee.. cause meow meow is leaving .. went back to giv her a "kissgoodbye"..OPSS... hee.. i think our relationship grow stronger after tat tiff.. hee..opss.. u r now in a new environment.. new life.. must be happy and take care urself o.. must work hard in studies also... but not too hard.. dun over stress urself or else sick den not gd .. no one take care of u and i not ard.. opsss.. hee.... and the most important thing is too miss me k..opss... hee..now u konw how "xing fu " are you leh.. got bf.. opsss..heee.. bler..meow meow meow.. heee.. i will take gd care of myself here de.. and take gd care of "fuiyoh" also.. heee..u must take gd care of CJ also k.. heee...LUV YOU O.. heee...this week got a long weekend thursday till sunday.... hee.. goin to watch "IRON MAN" with my class on labour day i think... den Fri daddy mommy will come and go airport fetch sis on Sat. heee.. she say she bought me a teddy bear.. hee... dunno how it looks like .. but for sure.. "fuiyoh" is always the cutest... heee.. meow meow..=) tat is all bout me past this few days... hee.. bler...

Miss YOU..

YOu sure leaving liao .. hmm.. gonna miss u a lot a lot. once u leave the chances of talking to u get lesser. u hv to focus on ur studies.. and there will be less time for us..... hmmm... i dunno wat will happen ... think a lot.. but all link to sad sad ending... i wonder ... u keep on telling me to hv confident on us..... but i really cant get any out of myself..i dunnO .. i feel so unsecure ..maybe i too afraid to lose u ...because i too love YOU..... I MISS YOU HONEY ... I LOVE YOU.. i dun wan to lose u .. hmm.. but life goes on ... i know... all i wish is u can be happy up there... den i will be happy over here... hmm... LAOPO...allow me to call u this here... i love u i miss u.... meow meow meow... heee.. must be happy o....u happy den i will happy.... and dun agitate me so much ho... heee.. later i worry and sad den make u sad also... hee... hmmm... so when u r there must take good care of urself...dun get sick ... must study hard... prove to them u r the best.. must think of me also k..... hmmm... i will work hard here also ... i will miss u .....i hope our love wun fade..... hmmm... i know our love will be eternal.... i love u .... <3 <3 <3........TAKE CARE LAO PO.....muackss muackss..=')

离去

看着你的背影缓缓的离去,
我心碎了,
今夜下的雨,心中的眼泪,
抹不去的思念,
何时才能再相见??
过去的欢乐,当时的笑容,
为何此刻想起却是心酸,
黑夜孤独,风雨相伴,
一生的爱,一世的情,
只有你.
不要求什么,
只希望天天夜夜陪着你,
不想离去,却无能为力,
命运的安排,缘分的愚弄,
只有坚强的面对,
等待..等待...这就是我所能做的.........

LeavING

hmmm.. leave klg soon... sch start soon .. goin back sg soon... goin to miss here... goin to miss a lot a lot ... hmmm... meow...hmm... a new secind year for me.. hmm .. time to pia liao .. PIA for better GPA.. pia for scholarship .. pia for everything .. my mind must be strong ... must be strong.... hee... i will miss here....... a lot a lot....

缘

缘起缘灭...患得患失.....这就是无常

mou dareka no tame janakute(u dun hv to force ur smile for anyone)

jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo(it's okay to smile for urself)

Story...

her name is N , a transfer student from a out state gal sch ....
his name is K , the top student in sch, monitor of the class, a nice and friendly gentleman...
his name is J, K's best fren clever, not need study much but can get very good result , live to flirt gals....

THIS IS THEIR STORY....

"K! K!...look look ...."
"Wat?!"
" that is the gal from the convent sch , isnt she pretty??.. hee"
"J, i know wat u r thinking .. dun even think bout it.. ppl come here to study .. dun mess with her.."
"O O O .... K... u really care about her ah ... dun tell me U hv already fall for her liao..wooooooo.."
"RUBBISH..!!.. i wonder wat class she will be assign to...??"
"Haha ... i know u r praying hard for her ... hee..opsss"
"Huh??"
"To get in our class of course.. hee.. so tat u can get close to her ... haha.."
"Ish... shut up..."
"U r blushing K... heee...opss.."
"............"

(Deep in the heart K knows she is the one .. but he just dun hv the guts to admit it....and as his wish, N got into their class.... now his mind is getting more and more messy ... his heart is bumping more and more fast....)

"Hi... i am K .. i am the monitor for this class.. welcome to our class.. if there is anything just let me know.. nice to meet u.."
"Hi .... nice to meet u too... i am N.."
"Haloo... i am J .... K best fren .. nice to meet u also ... u r pretty u know??.. hee.."
"J.. dun talk rubbish !!"
"Ho HO ... so K .. u saying she is not pretty la... hmmm"
"No , i dun mean tat .. sry N .. sry sry ... NO NO.. ish .. (blush)..."
"hahaha... just joking la.. i know u wun mind right? N..hee.."
"Ya.. hee...is ok .. i can tell this is a nice class.. and we will hv fun.. heee.. especially u K... u r a nice guy .. hee"

(Her first smile... and first praise on K....he is goin bonkers liao ... his heart beat is getting faster and faster ....and he cant control it.... with this friendly and nice intro ... three of them become gd frens ... they play , they laugh , they tease, and secretly they start loving each other......)

"RRINGGGGGGG....."
"Hey, K , halo J.. heeee...where shall we eat today??heee.. "
"Halo N.... "
"Arlowssss...heee... u decide ba.. ladies hv the rights .. hee.."
"Hmmm.. ish ish . K so any suggestion??"
".... "
"U ok K?..... wat happen J??"
"Haizzz.... his daddy has been transferred .. and his family hv to move .. so he may not be studying here anymore.. "
"....Well... is just a small thing la.. nvm de.. i am ok ... let dun spoilt our mood.. hee... lets go eat at the mamak stall we use to eat.. heee... let's go J , N...lets race there...loser treat... haha.."

(off he ran .... N and J know ... he is just acting strong... hmmm.. they hv a quiet meal.. no one talks... even the talkactive J keep quiet .. )

That night J call K ....

"Bro .... i need to tell u smtg... smtg tat had kept in my heart for a long time..."
"Ya .. sure .. i am all ears...hee"
"I like N... dunno since when .. but i am deeply in love with her... and is not like others gals tat i like before . this time is different.... this time is real..i am goin bonkers because of her.... hmmm"
"......wow... hmmm....did u told her ur feeling already???"
"ya .. i told her once.. but .. she rejeted me.. she says is not the time yet... and she says .. she already hv someone in mind... hmmm.... i dunno wat to do . i really love her....."
"hmmm .. bro . just let fate decide it k.... hmm. i wonder who is in her mind... hmmmm.."
"u hv to kept it a secret k??.... i dun wan her to know i still love her.... i scare she avoid me .. hmm.."
" sure dude.... J , my brother... looks like is serious this time .. hmm... let fate decide it ba.. "

(they talk a lot tat night .. but the more J says how he love N .. the more K bleeds in his heart.. cause he is also in love with her... and now his best fren shares the same feelings... his mind is already very messy .... now even worst.... hmmm..)

(the next day , N call K out during recess time....)
"K .. can i talk to u privately ?"
"Sure... wat happen?"
"K... i know this will be a lil shock .. but if i dun tell u now... i scare i wun hv any chances to tell u anymore...."
"wat so serious?.. someone bully u??.. u ok??"
"K.. I LOVE YOU... i LOVE YOU... i love u since the first day i met u ..... i love u .. can u dun leave me...hmmm"(she cried)
"....."(K was speechless and shocked... he dunno wat to do .... all he does was just hugging her and let her cry....)

(Tat night .. K thinks a lot..... he love N very much ....and N too shares the same feeling towards him .... he has to make a decision ... he has to leave... he thinks tat he cant giv wat N wans...although he can stay for one or two years... but after the sch time he still hv to leave... hmmm... at tat time . both of them will suffer more .... so he decide to help J to woo N ... at least is someone he trust tat is taking care of N..... at least he can rest assure and leave....)

"K....."
"Good Morning N... hee... let hv dinner later k??.. hee"
(after sch , they went to the same mamak again..)
"N.. i hv been thinking over and over again last night.. hmm .. and i hv smtg to tell u ... "
"I cant stay here anymore .... i hv to leave with my dad.... so .. u know.. hmm...."
"i hv one last wish ... there is someone who r very in love with u also .... J ... "
"all tat i wish is both of u two to be happy .... so .... hmm... i am leaving tmr.... sry i can accept ur love.... fate hv make the decision .. hmm"
"K .. No ... y ? u dun love me?...u can still stay for one or two years.. tat is all i ask for ... i really love u K.. pls pls .. dun leave.. dun .. hmmm"

(she cried.... this time K din hug her or say anything but he just left.... cause he cant stand it anymore... he cried also ... he call J to go console her ... and told J to take good care on her ...this is the last time N met K ......)

K left.. J and N din get together also .... N left after one year K left.. she was too upset and she collapse... J is still a happy go lucky person . but in deep in his heart... NO one knows what is he thinking...

TO BE CONTINUE...............

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DreaM...

"All of these happened like in a dream .. but is real ... for me i really dont wish to get up from this nice sweet dream , cause i really dont wish to leave you... hmmm.."

Sometimes in my mind, smtg flash through , and few days later these things happen in real ... hmm .. i wonder y it happen .. is like this place tat i nv been b4 , but when i reach there , there r some pictures of it in my mind , is like so familiar... like i hv been here long time ago ... this similar thing happen in ppl also , sometimes i met someone tat i hv not met b4 but feel the very close feeling like relative , or closer.. strange... i know. but tat happens... dunno y.. IMAGINATION??..... maybe....

i saw an article tat day , it says on an ancient building craving , there is an astronaut picture on it... i been wondering , is this world like goin round and round. century after century ... mankind vanish den some other creatures rule this world and evolves into new mankind again .. and this cycle keep goin and goin ... our ancestor is from apes.. tat hv high intellegence... maybe the next new mankind is from dolphin ... heee... dunno.... haha.. this is IMAGINATION.. hee.. but it may come true also ... hee.. every technology and evolution in this world came from human mind .. so be creative .. maybe YOU will be the next great inventor or sciencetist.. haha..

chaNGES...

"ETERNAL" .... i wonder y this word exist.. wat i hv understand on nature now is everything changes and changing is nature... nothing is eternal .. or maybe i havent met it yet.. hmmm .. a wonderful harmony family can change due to one person's stubborness.. and change into a scary .. unwarm home.. the only feel in this home is just to quickly get out of it and go somewhere peace... hmmm...haha.. these are just a sense of my thoughts.. hee .. bler.. dun care .. haha.. i have bright future(i think..)hee.. all i hope is not a very wealthy life .. all i need is just a comfortable relax life .. tat dun hv much obstacles ,suffering or troubles.. hee. i just hope my life can be very smooth , very peaceful , very enjoy ... living with my love ones.. as a big happy family .. no quarrel . no fight.. no anger.. only love....heee.. but .. hmm.. i think is hard .... haha. bler... bler.. HAPPY APRIL FOOL everyone .. hee.. i was fooled last night .. haha.. ish ish..=)